Regular? ...Not me!

"It'd be so great if I had something more than a headache. Something like brain cancer."
I blurted that out very matter-of-factly to my friend, and got a super-emotional "never-say-this-again" reaction. Not my friend's fault, I agree.
It's just that I've lived enough of a 'regular' life. I get up in the morning, and the sun goes up, up, up in the sky, and down, down, down, and I sleep. On most days, what I've done in the mean while is nothing worth the importance that we associate with 'LIFE'.
Here's where brain cancer comes in. If I knew I had, say, six months to live, I'd live my best life! I'd travel, I'd fall in love, I'd write a book, I'd make a movie - all of it - cram it up into six months of sheer exhilarating excitement.
It's not that I don't realize this is way dramatic, and that's not how it really works. If I had brain cancer, I'd probably spend six months consoling my family and my friends, and they consoling me, and getting horrible painful treatments done, and looking awful - which is the worst part.
But hey, don't look at the finger. Look at what the finger is pointing at!
My grand dad and my dad have spent their lives running after money - making it, losing it, remaking it. My grand mum and my mum have spent their lives running homes. They all spend half their time cribbing. I respect them all immensely (AND I LOVE MY FAMILY), but just this one thing, makes me think. Really hard.
I like to take responsibility for my life. If my life is a certain way, it's because of me, and NObody else! Awful, wonderful, tragic, magic - whatever.
I don't like being regular. I'm a talented girl, with a rather intelligent mind of my own, and I'm ambitious.
I'm just 16, yet, I don't want to wake up, and go to school, finish my homework, and eat and sleep. And get distinction. Blah. I don't CARE about distinction. What does a 95% in my report card do for me, if all I know is what I know from text books!?
I'd rather go out there, and experience life. Live it. Inhale it. Frankly, I don't even care about understanding it. I just want to have a good time, and do my bit.
Mediocrity is worse than losing. There's a way in which you can be a great loser; no way you can be great when you're mediocre.
I won't mind being rich and famous. But it's so much more important for me to be able to follow my heart, crazy as it may be. If I feel like going on a vacation without a decided destination, so be it. If I feel like watching four films a day, so be it. If I feel like jumping in a mud pool, then so be it. Whatever my heart says, so be it. That's life.

Look into my eyes sometime. Read a story.